I Do Not Look at Porn Today
One client who has been sober for over one year recently wrote:
Joy and happiness because of no more porn.
“I do not look at pornography today, I do not masturbate. Two things I honestly thought I could never say before I entered into therapy … I would not be where I am today without the help of therapy and the InnerGold system. I always had the desire to change, but I lacked the practical daily tools in order to do so. The knowledge I’ve gained has literally changed every aspect of my life! The InnerGold system is not just a program to complete but a way of life and that has made the difference.” – Mike P.
Years ago, I had a profound experience that made a lasting impression on my life. The memory of this experience has stuck with me in vivid detail. While attending a local junior college in California, I was offered a custodial position at a beautiful new church building under construction. The work schedule was flexible, which was perfect for me while attending school. The church was nearing completion, and it was my responsibility to make sure the building was immaculate both inside and out. This was truly a beautiful building! The lawn, trees and shrubbery outside were well-kept and looked beautiful. The inside was furnished with all new materials. There was even a full-court basketball gym/cultural hall in the center of the building. The members of the church were excitedly anticipating the dedication of the building so they could begin their activities and worship services there. From the outside it appeared everything was in order.
About two weeks before the dedication of the building, the contractor asked me if I wanted to earn a little extra money. Being a young and “naive” college student, the thought of a few extra dollars was very appealing so I told him I was interested and asked what the job entailed. The contractor took me to a utility room and pointed to a hatch on the ground. He said, “I need you to go down there and clean out the tunnels that run throughout the building. We need to get that cleaned out before the dedication of the building.” This seemed exciting to me because I had no idea there were tunnels that ran throughout the building. The contractor informed me I might want to take some knee pads with me since the only way to do the job done was on my hands and knees. He knew exactly what the job entailed, and I soon learned why he was not doing the job himself. Needless to say, I did not complete all of the job.
Ten years later … I found that nothing more had ever been done to remove the junk. It was even worse than I remembered, the junk is right where it has always been.
We are all like this church building in that we can look beautiful on the outside and keep things that need to be corrected hidden on the inside. Just like the building, as we go through life we pick up emotional and addictive junk; more often than not, we just build over it (deny it) without ever dealing with it in an appropriate manner. Such junk is laying the foundation of addictions and problems in later life.
The foundation where this junk sits is rarely addressed in an appropriate and meaningful manner. Many people simply live the way they always have because that is all they know.
